N: On Becoming A Dad
Yesterday I was holding Garbanzo, feeling him kick inside mommy’s tommy, and I realized that in approximately two months he will be outside of mommy! It seemed so surreal. To think, “Wow! How did we get here? How did we get so blessed with this opportunity of life?” I realized how hanging out with baby had become normal and just is what it is, but in two months our little bean will be out and about. It seems so far away and yet so close at the same time, and the great thing is that, I’m not worried about it at all. I’m so excited to to have the opportunity to instill life and opportunity into this child.
I also started to think about how responsible I am going to need to be. Taking care of Audrey, of course, is an important and tough task 
, but a baby is so much different. I will be responsible for this person’s safety and provision. I will be the one to impart wisdom (anyone know where I can get some of this?) into our child’s heart (of course Audrey does this as well, but it is a very me centered post). This child will look to me to have the answers to all of life’s questions, and I have been given the responsibility to meet that expectation, even if it means I to teach my son about how we sometimes just don’t understand things in life.
We (Audrey and I) will get to share this person’s joys and sorrows. We will get to know him in such a detailed way. It is so cool knowing that, Garbanzo, already has a unique personality. Not a performer, as recent visits with family proved, what else will he be like? Will he look like mommy or daddy? Will he be mild tempered like his mom or have a bit of pep in his temper step like his dad? It’s so cool and exciting seeing characteristics now, and I can’t wait to see what the rest of them will be.
I’m really excited about being a dad. It is such a jump in responsibility, but I feel like it will transition smoothly (the responsibility thing, not the whole sleeping and lifestyle thing 
). I feel like right now is the time and place where we are supposed to be. So I assume that in a few months the surreal feeling of needing to pinch myself will disappear into a sound of crying, changing diapers, tears, joy, hopes, and love.
-n
Sarah Calcutt says:
February 3rd, 2010 at 7:45 pm
Yes! Both you and Audrey are going to be such amazing parents. Both of you will have different things that you will teach the “little bean” and together you will raise a wonderful son! If you were not nervous about the upcoming arrival then it would be a little scary, but because you and Audrey are taking every step together to ensure Garbanzo’s health and happiness everything will be OK. Throughout the nurturing process you will learn something new everyday as a family and it will become some of your most cherished memories when this little boy grows up. I love all three of you and will be sending my prayers throughout this exciting process!!!
-Sarah
nathan says:
February 6th, 2010 at 6:10 am
Sarah-
Have I ever told you, you rock! Thanks so much for the advice and kind words I truly cherish them. I love you call him the “little bean”
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cody says:
February 6th, 2010 at 12:57 pm
Turn to God for the way & the knowledge & He won’t let you fail. Here’s a fww verses I turn to when I feel overwhelmed or unsure.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children of one’s youth.
Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.
—Psalm 127:3-5
The righteous who walks in his integrity—
blessed are his children after him!
—Proverbs 20:7
This one is paticularly inspiring to me:
Train up a child in the way he should go;
even when he is old he will not depart from it.
—Proverbs 22:6
All your children shall be taught by the Lord,
and great shall be the peace of your children.
—Isaiah 54:13
Now of course don’t forget you need to teach bean some of the not so important or life changing things too- like pull my finger son!